Do not wait and at the same time be patient

Every Christmas since I returned to America, I buy myself a new moleskin notebook. At first I was going to keep it as a sacred place to write only about my thoughts about Theatre, plays I've read, shows I've seen, but then I realized that it was also very important to include my own ramblings because the two worlds influence each other and are deeply connected. I could not be one without the other. Once I allowed myself this freedom, I am never without my notebook because it helps me digest the world around me.

I have a special tradition, that when I'm ready to devirginize my moleskin, I take out the best pen I can find and write "A Word of Advice" from Anne Bogart's book A Director Prepares. It's just my way of reminding myself (theater-related or otherwise) to seize the moment but to also be patient. This was originally sent to me by Kristan when we first started dating and it continues to remind me that he supports and encourages me in all that I do. Dating another artist, another director no less, can be tricky, but at the same time the best thing, because no one understands what you go through better than another director, and even better when that person is also your partner.

I just deverginized my third moleskin and I thought I'd share the passage with all of you:

A Word of Advice by Anne Bogart

Do Not assume that you have to have some prescribed conditions to do your best work.

DO NOT WAIT

Do Not wait for enough time or money to accomplish what you think you have in mind.

Work with what you have right now.

Work with the people around you right now.

Work with the architecture you see around you right now.

Do Not wait till you are sure that you know what you are doing.

Do Not wait for what you assume is the appropriate, stress-free environment in which to generate expression.

Do Not wait for maturity or insight or wisdom.

Do Not wait until you have enough technique.

What you do now, what you make of your present circumstances will determine the quality and scope of your future endeavors.

And at the same time, be patient.

"Happy New Year"

So that happened: 2009 is coming to an end, but for me this is not the New Year. It doesn't feel like the beginning of the year to me. It has always felt like this awkward holiday in the middle. Where people pretend to start over. Really for me, my new year starts in August. Mostly because of the school year, but now as an adult it's because my favorite planner starts in August and so does the theater season. Somehow the end of summer and the beginning of fall begins the new year. Summer is over and with it's passing it takes away the carefree attitude and ushers in a serious "back to work" one.

Here is how the "2009" year breaks down:

January: Moved to part-time at PCS, begin part-time at Windermere. How to Disappear-dramaturg, Fertile Ground-Krishna's Folly
February: not much-it went by rather fast
March: Spring Break with Kristan in NY
April: Let go from PCS, and I turned 25, continue part-time at Windermere
May: Fly to Providence to see Endgame
June: Third Rail Workshop
July: Begin rehearsal for The Bullet Round, attended JAW
August: The Bullet Round Opens & Closes
September: Rehearse Fool for Love
October: Fool for Love Opens
November: Watch the entire 6 seasons of MI-5, begin working for Linda, visit Kristan for Thanksgiving
December: Watch a lot of Criminal Minds, read scripts, Kristan home for Hamlet

Not too bad. A pretty eventful year if you ask me! Learned a lot about myself and my chosen profession.
But in reality, my year started in August, so it's not fully complete until next August. I am rather curious what 2010 has in store for me...

I make resolutions all year round, so making one tonight isn't special. But here it goes: I would like to take Joey on an hour walk every morning, which would mean getting up at 7am. Can I do it? You all know I love to sleep. Go to Yoga 2-3 times a week. And read more scripts.

Coming to a January 2010 near you, Megan finally gets her Real Estate License. Finally. (maybe)

Is it time for GLEE yet?

I was late to arrive to the scene of 'Glee'. I kept reading people commenting about it on facebook and after my show opened I watched it on hulu and instantly fell in love. It made me want to start voice lessons again. I even made my parents watch all the episodes back to back on hulu to get caught up. And every time an episode airs, I can't wait until the next show. I'm hooked and it looks like a lot of people are. It also seems to me that then entire theater community is also in love with the show, The New York Times just wrote an article about it. OMG. How popular is that? It seems to me that it will become one of those shows you watch over and over again, like 'Slings and Arrows' or 'Arrested Development'.

If you haven't had a chance to watch the show I suggest you get on it right now. Below is a segment from one of my favorite episodes.

David Mamet Wins!

From American Theater Magazine's Facebook Note:

You may be familiar with TCG's annual list of plays that will get the most productions in the coming season; this year Peter Sinn Nachtrieb's boom took top honors. But after going through season survey (in the October issue of American Theatre, we discovered that while Nachtrieb's play will certainly get the most productions of any single play, he's not the most produced playwright this coming season.

So we decided to do our own calculations to find out which writers take the honors, and we think the results, while not entirely surprising, are quite illuminating. They speak for themselves, but first two caveats: These numbers are compiled from self-reporting TCG member theaters; there may be another Crucible out there somewhere that hasn't yet made its presence known. And in the case of the most-produced playwright, two productions were added into consideration that weren't on the TCG season survey because they're Broadway productions.

Pop quiz: Which of the three (or is it four?) productions listed below are premieres? (You have to count co-productions that played first on the West Coast and are now coming to NY--otherwise the number of world premieres listed below is literally just two.)

Without further ado, here they are: the most produced playwrights in America for the 2009-2010 season.

UPDATE: We've gone over the list again and added a few blind spots: some big ones (McNally, Simon, Coward) and a few less obvious ones (Sheinkin, Hatcher).

David Mamet
19 productions: 5 of American Buffalo; 3 of Speed-the-Plow; 2 of November, Glengarry Glen Ross, and Oleanna; and one each of A Life in the Theatre, Two Unrelated Plays by David Mamet, Romance, Race, and The Voysey Inheritance (adaptation)

August Wilson
17 productions: 5 of Fences; 3 of Ma Rainey's Black Bottom; 2 of Jitney, Seven Guitars, and Radio Golf; and one each of The Piano Lesson, Two Trains Running, and Gem of the Ocean

Sarah Ruhl
17 productions: 8 of Dead Man's Cell Phone; 3 of Eurydice and The Clean House; and one each of Passion Play, In the Next Room (or the vibrator play), and Late: A Cowboy Song

Steven Dietz
17 productions: 7 of Yankee Tavern; 4 of Becky's New Car; 2 of Shootin Star and Go Dog Go (adaptation); one each of Sherlock Holmes: The Final Adventure and Honus and Me (adaptation)

Neil Simon
14 productions: 4 of Lost in Yonkers; 3 of The Odd Couple; 2 of Broadway Bound; and one each of Brighton Beach Memoirs, The Last of the Red Hot Lovers, Barefoot in the Park, Laughter on the 23rd Floor, Come Blow Your Horn

Terrence McNally
13 productions: 4 of Master Class and The Full Monty; 2 of Golden Age; and one each of Ragtime, A Perfect Ganesh, and The Lisbon Traviata

Arthur Miller
13 productions: 5 of All My Sons; 4 of The Price; and 2 each of The Crucible and Death of a Salesman

Tennessee Williams
13 productions: 7 of The Glass Menagerie; 4 of Cat on a Hot Tin Roof; and 2 of A Streetcar Named Desire

Jeffrey Hatcher
12 productions: 4 of Ella; 3 or Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde (adapt.); 2 of Tuesdays With Morrie (adapt. w/ Mitch Albom); and one each of Cousin Bette (adapt.), The Government Inspector (adapt.), Lucky Duck, and Mrs. Mannerly

Noel Coward
11 productions: 4 of Blithe Spirit; 3 of Private Lives; and one ach of Brief Encounter, Present Laughter, Design for Living, and Hay Fever

Donald Margulies
10 productions: 6 of Shipwrecked! An Entertainment; and one each of Dinner With Friends, Time Stands Still, Collected Stories, and Brooklyn Boy

Horton Foote
9 productions: 2 of Dividing the Estate and Trip to Bountiful, and one each of The Orphans Home Cycle (which is technically 9 one-acts over 3 programs, so special props to Horton), To Kill a Mockingbird, Valentine’s Day, The Carpetbaggers, and The Young Man From Atlanta

Conor McPherson
9 productions: 6 of The Seafarer, 2 of Shining City, and 1 of The Weir

Peter Sinn Nachtreib
9 productions of boom

Michael Hollinger
8 productions: 7 of Opus and one of An Empty Plate in the Cafe Du Grand Boeuf

Harold Pinter
8 productions: One each of No Man’s Land, Moonlight, Betrayal, The Collection, The Homecoming, and The Caretaker, and two anthology shows: Two by Pinter and Hearing Noise in Silence: A Six-Play Celebration

Rachel Sheinkin
8 productions: 7 of The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee and one of Little House on the Prairie (adapt.)

Thoughts on Theatre

I was looking through my e-mail to see if I had a copy of UNDERNEATH THE LINTEL by Glen Berger (p.s. If you do have a copy could you send it to me.), and found this NY Times article from October 1999. My gmail search picked up the word underneath. (Trust me it's in there, google highlighted it for me).

It's an excerpt from a conversation between influential playwrights moderated by the lovely Steven Drukman. I really think it's worth a read: (and it also gives me the opportunity to tell you about my followspot interview.)

Earlier this month, nine American playwrights gathered in Provincetown, Mass., to discuss the future of American theater. The meeting, organized by the Provincetown Repertory Theater, was recorded before an audience in the town hall. The moderator, Steven Drukman, who is writing a history of American avant-garde theater, began by asking whether there are two separate theater cultures in the United States: nonprofit and commercial Broadway. Here are edited excerpts from the session.

JOHN GUARE. Broadway has always been the marketplace. It was where Death of a Salesman was done, where ONeill worked, where The Glass Menagerie and A Streetcar Named Desire came. And then suddenly there was an Off Broadway, which became a much more viable place for serious plays. Broadway is the place where tourists come. When I was a kid at Yale Drama School back in the 60s, you dreamed about having a play on Broadway. I dont think anybody dreams that today. You dream of having a play at the Seattle Rep, or Louisville, or the Goodman or Trinity Rep. Thats where the theater is, and thats healthy. The only dangerous thing about it is that so much of the for-profit theater is learning to use the not-for-profit theater as a way of developing for-profit pieces. Another major problem is that so many producers are becoming fearful. The question is not where are the new playwrights? Or where are the new actors? Its where are the new producers who know how to produce a play, understand the writers intention and protect that?

TERRENCE McNALLY. I do dream of having a play on Broadway, John. It doesnt mean my dream is going to come true. But its a valid dream. Broadway theaters are still the best real estate in Manhattan in which to have our plays performed. Its easy to bash Broadway. I dont think we have two theaters. What has happened is that the plays that used to be done on Broadway, by writers of my generation, weve taken over Off Broadway. There was room for us when I began writing. Now, the younger generation finds it very hard to get established even Off Broadway. The Off Broadway movement was a significant change in our theater. But something has to be done about the economics of all theater, where they are less and less willing to take chances on the Terrence McNallys.

LANFORD WILSON. I have a play that could possibly come to Broadway from the Hartford Stage and it terrifies me that theater people seem to know more about West Ireland than they know about the Midwest.

PAULA VOGEL. When we talk about the future of the American theater we have to talk about the future of our economic structure. There is none supporting the theater. And that is becoming an increasing concern. Not only is it exorbitant to produce in New York, its exorbitant everywhere. And the funding is tied up with the attitude of government officials, who can do a kind of benign censorship. So I think the whole economic infrastructure is at risk.

JON ROBIN BAITZ. I was having breakfast recently with someone whos a rock star and hes a friend. And he was sort of stoned. He looked at me real queer and said, Why would a young person become a playwright? He just didnt understand it. It had no context. People are making little movies now for very little money. When you can make a smart, sexy movie for under $100,000 on digital video, it becomes what the theater might have been. It is evidence that the culture might have moved past the theater for now, to some extent. And maybe it will come back to the theater.

CHRISTOPHER DURANG. As long as Ive been around the theater, which is 25 years, everyone is always saying the theater is dying, blah-blah-blah. And yes it is. On the other hand, will it really end? If somebody wants to make a movie, maybe theyre not meant to be a playwright.

BAITZ. Im not saying its over. Im saying that this priesthood of being a playwright is sort of straining to survive.

DRUKMAN. But are you making a smart, sexy little comedy for under $100,000?

BAITZ. I cant write about sex. I would if I could. Theres just a white noise in here.

WENDY KESSELMAN. But Robbie, if you have to write about something, you have to write about it. For many people, the theater is the only way to really write that. It can be put into a film but its never quite the same. And I agree with Terrence about the dream -- now, having been on Broadway [as the adapter of The Diary of Anne Frank, revived in 1997], I cant wait to go back.

AUGUST WILSON. Having had six plays on Broadway, I would hate to see playwrights abandon it. I think its vital, primarily because the American people see it as the mecca and because the straight play, or the honest, serious playwright, should be represented there. However, when you talk about the future of the American theater, the question that comes to my mind is what is American about the American theater? We have, in American theater, an art form that is based on European dramatic values, an age-old dramaturgy that is handed down from the Greeks. That is the art form that I work in and one that I embrace. America is a society that is multiracial and multicultural. Yet the values of the American theater are based on European-American values. Values of other cultures are not seen as valid. As an example, the theaters that seek to preserve and promote the values of African-Americans do not have relationships to the funding sources because they do not meet the sociological criteria of being European-American. If were going to have something that is called an American theater, then we have to allow room for the esthetic values of Hispanics, for Asians, African-Americans, for all the racial and cultural groups that make up this society, as well as for the age-old tried-and-true values of the European-American. The theater is a tool by which one makes a speech, if you will. And you can look at it in terms of the First Amendment right to free speech and the Constitutional guarantee of that. But the lack of access to funding that will allow you to make that speech can be considered a prior restraint.

DRUKMAN. That point is indisputable. But I think what Robbie was getting at is that this new, disaffected youthful artist will get together a group of people, a camera and a sound person. There isnt a comparably active, new avant-garde theater culture that is getting into the theater, which is reflected in Robbies friends comment, Why would you ever be a playwright? Im not sure thats only a question of access.

VOGEL. Playwriting isnt a calling as much as it is a hazing process, in which one is actively discouraged by lack of funding, by poverty, by lack of access. Off Broadway is an impossible goal for playwrights who do not fit the mold of, yes, European dramaturgy.

DRUKMAN. How experimental are we allowing ourselves to be? And are plays getting edgier, or are they becoming more homogenized?

A. R. GURNEY. All really good theater has an element of anarchy underneath it, of chaos, of real darkness. I think thats why we go to the theater, to see people put on masks and try to put shape on that darkness. And that can be frightening not only to the standard bourgeois audiences that go to plays, but to the people who fund plays. And thats a serious thing. When a play becomes too dangerous, too tricky, then the odds are it might not be produced.

AUGUST WILSON. We are all contemporary playwrights and the plays we write are much different from plays that were written in, say, 1930 and 1949. That is because we have built on the tradition of American theater, which was at one time experimental. So the experiment proves the value of the tradition: the playwright sits down and uses or discards at will that which he is given by his predecessors. If you look at American society in the last 30 years, we have made tremendous changes from the time when I was a young man until now, when I am in my middle age. I dont think there is a theater that has kept up with that change. One of the things that playwrights wrestle with, to my mind, is the influence of television. We cannot go backward. Television is here. I think that playwrights are in the process of trying to figure out how to absorb that influence and to make dramatic art out of an influence that wasnt there in the 1920s.

GUARE. I was teaching at a university a few years ago and there were two people in the class who were remarkably talented, where you just say, Ah, there is a future for the theater. They had gone so far into debt to take this writing program that when their two years were up, both of them went out to California just to get work in episodic television to pay off the enormous debt they had incurred. And they are lost because they are both now very successful. They have learned to work in a corporate voice and feel that the theater is elite because its the voice of one playwright. They like the comfort of working on a half-hour comedy that goes into 50 million homes. Those two people will never come back to the theater. Now the amount of money that it costs just to go to Yale or N.Y.U. makes your future impossible, because you incur an extraordinary debt that then paralyzes your life paying that off.

AUGUST WILSON. There is something disturbing about what youre saying.

GUARE. Which is?

AUGUST WILSON. I never took a course, for instance, or went to school. I think there is something called an artist and either you want to be an artist or you dont.

GUARE. But what Im saying is I dont think we live in a society that gives people the confidence to be an artist. I think that youre very, very, very rare.

AUGUST WILSON. Its something that you have to claim though. And you pay your dues or you do whatever is necessary. Im sure that Picasso could have made more money in graphic art, but he was an artist.

VOGEL. Its still a matter of access. I dont think that film is necessarily the enemy. A while ago I had probably the most extraordinary teaching opportunity Ill ever get. I did a playwriting workshop for women in maximum security at an adult correctional institution. Those women did much better than my graduate playwrights. They had to. They wanted to. But they had never seen a play. They had never gone to the theater. We could only approach what theater was by talking about television and film, which was storytelling they know. So a lot of this to me is access. Theater is unmediated between a living and breathing audience and a living and breathing actor on the stage. There are no lenses in between us. There is no directors cut. Its really about a community dialogue and that is why I think that access is made difficult in this society. Those women in maximum security dont become playwrights because they would tell us a thing or two about realism.

GURNEY. I think it has again to do with funding, but a different kind of funding, namely funding for our schools. Just the way the symphony orchestra is having a great deal of trouble now, because the high schools are not able to fund school orchestras and kids dont get a chance to pick up an instrument and learn what it is to be a part of an orchestra. Its the same thing with school drama programs. Somehow the schools have got to introduce the arts.

DRUKMAN. Are there ultimate taboos in American playwriting? Are there things you feel you shouldnt or mustnt----

DURANG. No elephant dung.

AUGUST WILSON. I cant think of a taboo I would impose upon myself. If I did, Id write a play about it.

BAITZ. I think race is still a taboo. Even though people do write about it, its very, very difficult, because there is so much rage and guilt. Its the great subject in this country, this race rage on all sides.

KESSELMAN. There is another interesting taboo Ive come up against and thats children. If you portray children as having deep, serious emotions, you are absolutely lambasted.

LANFORD WILSON. Children know that they are lying and performing for their parents. But we cant write that.

KESSELMAN. The play Im talking about involved a brother tormenting his little sister. When we had discussions with children in the audience -- Have you ever done such a thing? -- they were just thrilled to tell how they put their sisters in trunks and everything else.

AUGUST WILSON. I want to get back to something that Jon Robin Baitz said. I agree with you. I think race is a great subject and an important subject because it deals so much with the history of this country and the aftermath of that history, which we are all a living part of. Obviously I dont find it a taboo.

BAITZ. For me, I guess, the question is, Am I qualified to know whats in my heart? Am I qualified to speak for myself, even?

AUGUST WILSON. When you say race, you are not just talking about African-Americans. You are a member of a race also.

VOGEL. When we talk about writing about race, I keep going back to when Anna Deavere Smith told me that strangers are much more likely to talk to each other about sex than race. Its absolutely true. In another conversation she said white writers have to do the race work. It cant just be writers of color, in terms of reading and thinking it through. And that is when I started thinking about this. Its not a matter of research. Its a matter of thinking it through carefully so that you can stand on the ground from where you write in terms of race. I think that white writers -- whether its guilt or not wanting to go through that journey -- were in the state of denial.

BAITZ. To me, I feel that black people and white people in this country are still terrified of one another on a basic, almost a -- to steal a David Hare phrase -- mineral level. I want to write about that. I think we understand one another even less as the century ends. And the divide becomes even bigger. So, as a taboo, the longer youre silent, the harder it is to grasp.

LANFORD WILSON. Well, art is born out of, among other things, necessity. Writing a play for me is like walking down this landscape of the self. Many things that you confront sometimes are not the best parts of yourself. But you have to be willing to deal with them so that you emerge at the end with a brighter and stronger spirit, ready to go through the next journey.

Translation

Last night I attended the Opera with Mr. Mead. I was really looking forward to going since it's been ages since I've been to one, and this was Orphee by Phillip Glass. Hello!?

It was outstanding. Really beautiful music, but of course you expected that, a stunning set and a wonderfully told story. You should see it if you can. I highly recommend it. But to see a more eloquently put review go to Mead's site.

And this got me thinking about translation, because this version does something different than other versions of the Eurydice/Orpheus story. I'm not going to tell you, you have to go see it.

I took a translation class in college with Dr. London (yes that was his name and he lived in London..hehe). I adored this class because he was so knowledgeable and spoke like 7 different languages. But the basic idea of the class was learning how different people used translation from the native language to a foreign language or from music to text or visa versa to highlight words that are most important to them. Translators select the version that they believe is what the original author meant when they wrote those words, but this can vary from translator to translator. And your interpretation of their translation could alter your understanding completely.

This is different than adaptation. For example, what Chris Murray is doing with Hamlet at CoHo productions is adaptation. He is using Shakespeare's words, but he's selecting what he needs to tell the story he wants to tell. I am very excited about this upcoming production and even more proud that they have managed to raise the money needed for the set. Bravo!

And all this is inspiring me to find my next project, whatever that may be. I feel a bit stuck at the moment. Not exactly sure where/what to start. But I'll get there and I'll let you know when I do. Right now it's nice to relax and take in the scene.

Food for Thought.

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And then I read this article and this article.

And all this just got me thinking about the role of women in society and how far have we come, in work and in our relationships. A lot of my friends have been getting married lately so it's got me thinking about why it's so important and how does it change a relationship (besides legally of course)? And why does anyone care if two gay people get married? Let them. This argument about marriage being sacred and only between a man and woman is BS. The sanctity of marriage was destroyed a long long time ago by straight people. Besides, most of the gay people I know have stronger, longer, and healthier relationships than some of my straight friends. Enough about marriage, now on to work...

I work in a heavily male populated medium and in both of my recent interviews (go here & here) I have been asked about how my being a woman has influenced my work as a director or on a specific script. I dunno. I am what I am and I direct. I don't understand how the two can be mutuality exclusive.

Maybe it's because my mother always worked, but I knew from an early age that I wanted to be a mom and have a career and I wasn't going to sacrifice one for the other, even though I've been told that someday I'll have to. I'm stubborn, what can I say. So it's nice to see examples or working mothers in the directing field, although they are few and far between.

All this to say that I think people, our government, our employers do need to be a bit more flexible with our schedules our health care (don't EVEN get me started here...but it needs to change in America now. now now.) Because at the end of the day, America we don't have to do everything the same way. The 9-5 the marriage the living in the suburbs. It's much much better to be different and open and accepting of our differences.

I will step off of my soap box now.